It's been a while since I last wrote in this blog. A friend said that I would only write when I am in a certain condition where I have "scream" my heart out. That could be right cause at the moment I am in a rather difficult situation.

A series of unfortunate events? (quoted from one Jim carey movie)

I think I am exagerating things if I say it like that, since God has given me the best times of my life and let me taste the beauty of His creation.

A lack of management of feeling?

Probably, because I had unpleasant experiences in the recent years.

Perfect guy, wonderful feeling, different point of view..

Good guy, exact point of view, not a good feeling..

Nice guy, fair point of view, great feeling, definitely not the best "timing"..

Those repetitive experience I undergo were the best teacher I have ever had. But still, I undergo the exact same thing now. I am falling for someone for whom I had to disapoint so many hearts of my beloved ones. But no matter how many tears and heart break (for making my beloved ones sad), I cannot beliece that he can still say those words.

Of course, if I want to live with something for the rest of my life I have to see from all different point of view. Or even see from a broader perpectives. That is not to offense or even make "fun" of it. All I want is to see and believe from the bottom of my heart that happinees is for us to take.

I really don't know what I have to think now..